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i am so incredibly alone.

i don’t know where my life is going. i have not a single idea as to what i want to be. i just want happiness. i want someone who cares. i am sick of having to hide my feelings from my friends. how do you define a ‘friend’? is it just someone you like to hang out with? isn’t a friend supposed to listen to your problems? i honestly don’t know how long it has been since i could just talk about my problems without thinking, “oh my god, she’s gonna say i’m stupid, she’s not gonna take me seriously, she’s gonna just tell me to stop it, i am being annpying, i am worthless, i am a nobody.” because that is what i am. i am nobody. i am nothing. i am made of nothing and nothing is what i am going to fade into one day.

i don’t know if they are with me only because i am just there and they choose not to ignore me or they truly like me. what is there to be liked about me? i wouldn’t know. i am nothing special. i am a pure waste of space and precious air. i can’t imagine someone truly caring about me. i am so fucked up. i know i shouldn’t say these things. i have a nice family. i have a great boyfriend. but he’s away. and he won’t be here any soon. i see no way out.

3 months ago  Notes (1)
  1. missingmisspipedream answered: I am pretty bad in cheering up but hey i think you are a very nice and special person. i would write you a message but u turned it of.
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